My story Jun 20, 2015 20:12:17 GMT -8 via mobile
Post by Brian on Jun 20, 2015 20:12:17 GMT -8
I love the idea of this forum. It's an idea whose time has come.
My name is Brian. I have an anxiety disorder. It's been called "generalized anxiety disorder" but I think it's more of a social anxiety disorder.
There are people that I become pretty uncomfortable around. And I can become pretty uncomfortable around people incrementally over a period of time as well. I know to some extent when and why but sometimes it's completely out of the blue.
However, most people that I experience this with start becoming uncomfortable with me sometime after the time it begins for me. I'm not totally sure how my psychology / body language / demeanor changes exactly because I'm experiencing it and cannot view myself in 3rd person very easily, but I have an idea.
In many cases there's nothing "wrong" with these people that trigger it, but something about them triggers something in me that I absolutely cannot deal with. And most of the time I don't consciously know what it is.
If I didn't tell you about this issue you probably wouldn't pick up on it as I generally appear to be an affable, self-confident person.
I've gone to psychologists and psychiatrists. I meditate and do affirmations, although not consistently.
I'm currently taking 20mg of Fluoxetine (Prozac) which helps moderate things. I vape marijuana as well.
I want to know what this anxiety disorder is about and I want to get off fluoxetine. I want to deal with any skeletons I may have lingering in my closets. I want to know what the purpose of my life is and I want to know what the nature of reality is. I want to become the best person I can be. I want to help myself and I want to help others.
I like people who are interested in self-actualization for themselves and for others. And I value close and confidential community.