Post by psychonaut on Sept 28, 2015 16:38:42 GMT -8
Last weekend I attended a 3-day Iboga ceremony with Sean and Steve (http://worldbridgers.org/). It was the most rewarding entheogenic experience I've ever had. It was everything I ever wanted! The medicine showed me the thought patterns I had that were not serving me and taught me how to deal with them. It got rid of all the negative chatter in my head and taught me to be present. I'm going to have to continue to work the teachings for the rest of my life, but something's changed. I love myself now. I love my body. I want to treat it well. It showed me where my eating disorder came from and transformed my relationship with food. My eating is radically different. It healed me physically; all the aches and pains I was having are gone.
The procedure was agonizing at times. The trip lasts 36 hours and you are dizzy and nauseated and you can't walk. The first part is called "the ordeal," and it really is. I was forced to bring up strength and resources within myself that I always knew were there but couldn't access.
Then we died. It was so peaceful. It wasn't scary.
Then we were reborn. They made us get up and dance to bring life back into our bodies. They told us that the more we danced the better we would feel. I learned that dance is a spiritual practice and healer!
I have never known this much peace of mind.
Being back in reality has been hard at times (can't sleep or stop thinking sometimes, which is the goal). But they tell me this is normal and the medicine is just continuing to work with me. Iboga told me it would stay with me forever.
It was one of the most difficult things I've ever done, but it was so worth it. If I felt I needed to I would do it again in a heartbeat. I don't think that will be necessary, though. Iboga is with me.
The procedure was agonizing at times. The trip lasts 36 hours and you are dizzy and nauseated and you can't walk. The first part is called "the ordeal," and it really is. I was forced to bring up strength and resources within myself that I always knew were there but couldn't access.
Then we died. It was so peaceful. It wasn't scary.
Then we were reborn. They made us get up and dance to bring life back into our bodies. They told us that the more we danced the better we would feel. I learned that dance is a spiritual practice and healer!
I have never known this much peace of mind.
Being back in reality has been hard at times (can't sleep or stop thinking sometimes, which is the goal). But they tell me this is normal and the medicine is just continuing to work with me. Iboga told me it would stay with me forever.
It was one of the most difficult things I've ever done, but it was so worth it. If I felt I needed to I would do it again in a heartbeat. I don't think that will be necessary, though. Iboga is with me.
